Sunday, June 10, 2018

Dia yang gemar menulis

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis
Kau akan tahu
Kau harus bersikap lebih manis
Karena kata-kata baginya adalah candu
Serupa rindu yang mampu ia genggam berlama-lamanya waktu.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis
Kau seharusnya bersyukur
Karena seburuk apapun sikapmu
Akan tetap ia abadikan namamu
Dalam setiap goresan pikirannya
Ya, kau akan abadi. 
Baginya kau abadi.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis
Kau harus (setidaknya) rajin membaca
Karena seringkali, diamnya adalah alat
Untuk ia tuangkan dalam tulisan khidmat
Dari sana kau tahu
Bahwa sesungguhnya ia gemar berkata
Hanya saja, bukan lewat bibir indahnya.

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis
Kau harus berhati-hati
Karena bila kau membuatnya sakit hati
Kau akan terkejut
Betapa tulisannya lebih dari sekedar mengiris nurani
Ia bisa membuatmu sekejap ‘mati’

Mencintai perempuan yang gemar menulis
Kau harus menghargai setiap tetes tintanya
Karena selain buah pikir, itu juga adalah separuh hidupnya
: seperti juga kau, yang dicintainya.

Bukittinggi, 27 Maret 2015
Tia Setiawati

Saturday, June 09, 2018

The Resilient Scrapper: A Conversation

You have to leave the city of your comfort and go into the wilderness of your intuition. You can't get there by bus, only by hard work and risk and by not quite knowing what you're doing, but what you'll discover will be wonderful. What you'll discover will be yourself. 
-Alan Alda

Anyways, I came across this quote that reminds me of you. Have fun traversing the Capital, discovering and understanding some new layers of yourself while embarking road to the career-hood. Fi hifzillah di Jakarta. They say a place only gives a reflection of yourself -- and you determine it.
Excited to hear from you soon!

June 15th, 2016.

Friday, June 08, 2018

And the heart whispers,

Ya Rabb,
Make me Your tool to serve You and Islam.

Ramadan 21st, 1439H

Thursday, June 22, 2017

the grammar nazi

when the guru personality in you comes out...

"How you speak is how you present yourself"
"How you present yourself reflects on who you are"
"That's why proper grammar and enunciation are important because 
it's the primary method of interaction"

and the only interaction we are having now is through the prayers. I personally think this is perfectly fine and truly, an exquisite form of interaction.

oh, Barakallahu fii umrik and may Allah protect you wherever you are!

Twenty four

A lot has changed and happened in-between ever since the first lesson I had, about seven years ago.

But one thing that always, and will always inshaAllah, stays the same is my prayers.

How long will this last? Eternity, the heart prays.

May Allah keep our hearts and intentions pure. 

Allahul Musta'aan.
Oh, I shall raise cup up for all my day ones. 
Thank you for sticking through up till this moment. 
Barakallahu feekum!

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

"do not hurt yourself by looking at that which was not destined for you. move on, it’s time."

for the umpteenth time- respect yourself, dear self.

Saturday, October 08, 2016

Mencari yang hilang

Setelah dua tahun yang penuh dengan kegiatan, warna, canda tawa dan tangisan, sampailah suatu titik dimana daku tercari-cari apa yang hilang; dan kutemukan ia-

keberaninan dalam ketenangan.

kehangatan dalam kebersamaan.

kekuatan dalam kesendirian.

Pada akhirnya, yang dapat menenangkan dan mendamaikan hati yang gundah adalah Dia dan ayat-ayat cintaNya :)


Monday, June 20, 2016


“Strength doesn’t come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn’t.”
 And it needs progress. And progress needs time. And as the time ticks by, you'll know it that you are getting better and improving :)


Wednesday, June 15, 2016


Alhamdulillah thumma alhamdulillah.

Lately I have become such a crybaby this Ramadhan over a lot of small things, instances and even conversations. It is like I have become a little super sensitive and easily moved by almost every single thing. I know! But these things trigger countless of realisations of how merciful Allah has always been towards every single aspect in life. Subhanallah. And this is indeed a blessing. 

Self check- probably because I have been 'away' from Him and 'too busy with my own life'. While this life isn't a permanent abode.

Ya Rabb, Simpulkan hati ini denganMu.
Ya Rabb, make us among those few who are grateful to You. Allahumma ameen.


Saturday, June 11, 2016

To continue

For the past year, I started with a new set of resolutions whenever embarking a new semester. Ironically, along the way I would end up 'doing the same thing' and the routine was an endless cycle. Some may say that it is better for us to start a new day with a fresh start but sometimes we actually need to carry some of yesterday's leftovers, wipe off its 'dusts' and polish it. Because yesterday is a lesson for a better tomorrow.

Hence, I have finally decided to continue scribbling on this site - after having a constantly intrusive debate on my mind on whether or not to make this site as a keepsake. But this site virtually witnessed my progress when I had a major turn in a quest of seeking internal peacefulness. (ok that sounds waaay to cliche, hahaha)

Nuff blabbering, I've determined to keep documenting this journey, but it will be more abstract and.... uncatagorised.  To add, it is mainly because I still read my own previous posts (aka stalking -- eh tak!). Reading them all over again actually benefits me in its very own unique ways - sometimes, I could not even believe that I wrote it or had ever think about such issues.

May Allah keeps the intention pure.

4th of Ramadhan, 1437H

Signing off,
bint Musthofa.

Saturday, June 04, 2016

Finally, Tabur West!

One slip and its the end. 


Balqis was overlooking Tabur East and Klang Valley

Hello from the other side!
Tabur eastttt
Hang buat apa tuuu? Saya nampak ni dari Tabur, haa  >:)

Spot KLCC, dok? 
ft. Raudhah's

Oh I love impromptu outdoor day-trips. 
It is unplanned but most of the time, bi iznillah will always happen. I had been wishing to visit  Bukit Tabur West ever since I visited his sibling during my first year, Bukit Tabur East -yep they are just hills. But  the planned trips were always either clashed with a programme or I had nobody to go with (clashed with their schedules). Alhamdulillah, juuuust yesterday, this impromptu trip was initiated by Ban and I hopped in right away. We were kinda dragged anyone who were still in campus -victims of having last paper on the very last day of the exam period. 

Generally, the West-side is a lil challenging than the East because you will have to unleash some rock climbing skills (or probablbouldering? haha) to climb through rocky peaks. There are 4 peaks in total. After the last peak, we made our way down and the 'forest trail' greeted and surrounded us for the next (almost) one hour. The whole hike took about (almost) 3 hours -with a lot of halts for taking pictures and recording the nature.

Anyways, thank you guys for the short escapade. Kudos to ban, hadi, sufi, balqis, raudhah and kak hafizhah for the awesome morning spent! #HangPiMana.

One down. More to go!
xo, Syaima.

Friday, April 08, 2016

Tuesday, September 01, 2015

A new fresh page, perhaps?

26th Aug 15; It's officially been a year I am studying abroad in Malaysia. I was thinking of creating another blog specifically for documenting momentum and things i gained while seeking knowledge in IIUM. A blog which, in the future, I hope it can help me through some anticipated stormy days I will encounter while pursuing a degree.. so I can read up, look at how far Allah has helped (and will always help) me in making breakthroughs and He was with me in those roller coaster days, as He always will. Perhaps its just a blog.... for personal motivation and documentation.

Just a thought.

Thursday, August 20, 2015


Meski belum jumpa apa yang kita pinta,
Kita sama-sama tahu bahwa tak ada pertemuan yang sia-sia.
Mungkin karena keterbatasan mata manusia, 

sedang apa yang ada di dalam dada tiada yang bisa mengira.

Sebentar atau sudah lama,
Segala cinta dan rindu sungguh bukanlah kuasa kita.
Kita patut bersyukur, sebab masih diberiNya anugrah rasa, 

debar degup yang menjadikan setiap nafas kita berharga.

Fitrah ini hadiah, indahnya belum bermakna bila tidak kita jaga.

Meski belum jumpa apa yang kita pinta,
Kita sama-sama tahu bahwa setiap langkah hijrahmu adalah langkah hijrahku.
Bila bersandar pada jalan yang sama, yakinlah suatu saat kita akan bertemu.

Sebentar atau sudah lama,
Segala cinta dan rindu sungguh bukanlah kuasa kita.

Fitrah ini anugrah,

sedalam-dalamnya tertumpah dalam doa. 
Setulusnya supaya saling menjaga dan terjaga.
Sampai batas waktu yang mengungkap segala pertanda:
Dalam doa, kita berucap lirih yang sama.


Sunday, August 16, 2015

Ungkapan hati seorang akhwat.

Ya Rabb,
Izinkan aku menjadi sekuntum bunga, 
Yg dihiasi dgn kelopak akhlaq mulia, 
Harum wanginya dengan ilmu agama, 
Cantiknya karna iman dan taqwa,
Namun keindahan zahirnya kusimpan rapi, 
Biar menjadi rahasia yg kekal abadi, 
Bukan perhatian mata lelaki ajnabi, 
Yang menjadi puncak fitnah hati.

Illahi Rabbi, 

Tumbuhkanlah duri yang memagari diri, 
Agar diriku terpelihara dari noda duniawi, 
Yang akan menghilangkan keharuman sejati, 
Yang akan memudarkan kecantikan diri.

Dibalik kekurangan yg tercipta, 

Bukanlah alasan untuk bermuram durja, 
Karna setiap yang tercipta ada hikmahnya.

Izinkan ya Allah agarku menjadi permata, 

Tetap menyinar walau di lumpur hina, 
Tetap berharga walau dimana saja.

Buat ummat dan juga keluarga, 
Izinkan aku menjadi seindah mawar berduri, 
Yang menjadi impian setiap muslimah, 
Yang indahnya bukan untuk lelaki, 
Tapi permata utk yang bernama suami.

- ungkapan hati seorang akhwat.

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Can I begin again?

All is lost,
only pieces of debris left.

All is gone,
but somehow,
I believe I saw a light
which gives a glimpse of hope.

Before this heart
gets overly attached again,
and things repeat
for the millionth time.

Someone stop me, please
before I change to worse
becoming someone different
I avoid to become,
with personalities
I hate to own,
and behaviours
I used to gotten rid of

You took me by the hands,
I blindly followed
soon realised
I started losing my own self
and questioning who I am
I want to leave
leave from this fantasy
deafen the ears from all of
these sweet lies
the bogus promises
the abhorred activities

Can I begin again?

Starting anew,
to rectify every single thing
simply live according to His Orders
live up to my own name
fulfill to their hopes
as what they wanted me to become.

Starting afresh,
so that I finally can sincerely smile.

inspire others, somehow
bi iznillah.

Allahul Musta'an.

sincerely, Qonitah.
When you are outside of your comfort zone.
When all the cafes are closed.
Gombak, Malaysia.
20:50, 230715

Monday, July 13, 2015

Seven thousand kilometres away.

One day someone is going to touch you
and it will not be with their hands.
They will move you with the way they speak,
the way they think, the way the see the world.
And you won't know if this is just an intellectual exchange,
or if it is somethin greater.
But you'll know one thing:
that nobody else has ever touched you like that.
And if you lose them, you will find yourself
searching for that touch in evey person you meet.
Because not anybody can just penetrate
your intangible human layers
but somehow, they did
- Nashiha Pervin

And ironically, you successfully did it.

Despite whatever happened five years ago,

I still couldn't replace and repay your (and your family's) touch  
that has made a huge impact on my life.

Back to December,
despite all the things happened over a year ago,
regardless over a thousand people I have met
from all walks of life, all corners of the earth
I occasionally found myself looking for a replacement
for what you have impacted on me
but to no avail.

Yes you, who are 7K kilometres away.

But when things are being done for His sake,
the heart finally understands,
the heart eventually feels at ease.

May Allah keep our hearts safe from all the sickness of the heart,
and guard it with fortress of imaan and taqwa.
O Allah, make this heart only beats and yearns for You.

Mahallah Sumayyah,
Gombak, Malaysia. 

Sunday, June 28, 2015

You are amongst the chosen ones!

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakaatuh.

Ramadhan Mubaraak to all my brothers and sisters in Islam. Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah for giving us a chance to meet another Ramadhan. Indeed this is a great blessing one should occupied and engaged one self in various acts of 'ibadah and deeds to attain the His Pleasure s.w.t. and the perfect way to show our gratitude is by giving thanks to the One who has made us able to reach this blessed month.

O dear souls, I have reasons why I started by emphasizing in saying thanks to Allah. The fact that we have reached the month with myriads of virtues and great opportunities of gaining 'ajr, and this month can be the ultimate delete button for our sins and what not...... some of us are not even able to reach taste this golden opportunity.

Few weeks before Ramadhan, I received a news that a close childhood friend of mine died in an accident in Germany, where he studied. What saddens me is, the fact that he was in a 'transition' process to become a better Muslim and was so eager to meet this year's Ramadhan to 'start a new phase of life'. But biiznillah, Allah loves him more. Not to add dramas into my story, but few minutes before Maghrib - which marks the start of the Ramadhan, one of my Whatsapp group was kecoh and spammed with condolence messages. A friend of ours in Islam just died in an accident and a lecturer of Celpad in IIUM just died of her sickness. May Allah keep all of them among the righteous people and grant them place in Jannah. Ameen!

O dear souls, come to think of it, they were juuuust a step closer to knock the door of Ramadhan while we are amongst those the chosen ones to be in this blessed month. How unlucky we could have be if we were to leave it without gaining any benefits from it, attain His Mercy and Forgiveness. Na'uzubillah min zaalik.

Tick tock tick tock.
10 days have passed and we're left with less than 20 days of blessed days.

Don’t give in, let's be Istiqamah. Just remember the day when everyone will be held accountable for every action that they did. All those struggles for the sake of Allah will be worth it :)

I pray that Allah accepts all that we have done this Ramadhan as good deeds and keep us steadfast in the coming days.

xo, Qonitah.
A reminder to myself, first and foremost.

280615, 9th day of Ramadhan.
Mahallah Sumayyah
Gombak, Malaysia.

Monday, April 20, 2015

Lower your gaze

Lower your gaze, not just from the opposite sex but also
Lower your gaze from the faults of others
Lower your gaze from that which does not concern you
Lower your gaze from that which people want hidden
Lower your gaze from that which makes you angry
Lower your gaze from things that will make you jealous
Mahalah Sumayyah.

Sunday, February 15, 2015

MIS: AADC - Ada Apa Dengan Cinta

Cinta menggoda tuk akrab bagai awan & hujan; merasa menghias langit, suburkan dataran.
Hakikat terlupakan; bahwa keduanya saling meniadakan.
Cinta menggoda tuk lekat bagai api & kayu; bersama menyala, hangat yang dirasa.
Terlalai akhir pilu; tiada diri tersisa selain debu & abu.
Cinta sejati kita; terkadang bagai 2 mata; tak usah berjumpa, tapi menatap ke arah yang sama.
Atau 2 tangan; saling menopang dalam ketaatan.
-Salim A. Fillah

00:38 am,
Mahallah Sumayyah.